And for the record, no, we are not trying to get pregnant anytime soon. I just want a baby. If we thought we could support another addition into our family, we would be trying. We both want kids. But we aren't comfortable adding another life into our household right now. I'm trying to get my master's degree and only working part-time and Clint's job barely gets the bills paid. We aren't hurting or anything, but we would be in a very rough spot if I was to get pregnant anytime soon.
Now, back to my ramblings. Several of my friends are pregnant or have small children. As I said before, I am happy for them. All of them. I just... I don't know how to deal with my feelings of jealousy. I don't like being jealous. I'm tired of being jealous. I don't know how to get over being jealous. I know that my jealousy gets in the way of me showing my happiness for them, but how can I show my happiness when that green monster won't budge?
"Anger is cruel and fury overwhelming but who can stand before jealousy?" - Proverbs 27:4 (NIV)
I have been there Cathrine. I used to want a house so bad. I got tired of living in that trailer that was falling apart, and when anyone else would talk about getting a new home it was hard to be overjoyed for them because I wanted one. I just prayed alot, and tried to mask my feelings. I will also say that there is never a good time to have a kid--you will never be able to afford it. But do wait until you finish school. :)
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